Matters of the Heart

There is not now, nor has there ever been, a recorded instance of forced love. You cannot make a person love you, no matter how hard you may try. You can also not help who you fall in love with. People will tell you, "Don't fall for him" or "She's no good for you" but at the end of the day, your heart will choose who you love and there is not one damn thing you can do about it.
Now, I have loved many. I have lost many. I have fallen in love with those I cannot have. I have been rejected. Dumped. Chased after. Harrassed. I have been through so many things in my love life to date. One thing stands out to me as I write this: "It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all". If you begin to feel yourself falling for someone, is it better to just not talk to that person anymore, or attempt to keep the status quo? Do you smile like a mad woman every time they are around? Do you not look them in the eye? Do you invite them over only to be dissappointed when they bring their partner? <Sighs> People, I cannot answer these questions for myself OR for you. I have no clue what I am doing, but I feel myself doing it. It is a familiar feeling, although different each time. What I am waiting for is the one to hit it out of the park. The one that makes time stand still with a single kiss, makes the room spin with a touch of the hand.
Now, on one hand I could settle for whatever comes along because I am lonely,  but on the other hand, I could use this oppurtunity to realize that I will never be happy in love if I settle. For just as one cannot force love upon another, one can also not force happiness upon a life that is less than desired. The truth is, I have been lonely for so long, looking, searching for my soul mate, but some where along the way, I realized that when I am ready and he is ready, there he will be. Just waiting for me. Loving me. I tell you now that I simply cannot wait for this day to come...but I will. I will wait and I will dream.